Monday, January 16, 2012

Pinterest Has Invaded My Kitchen

I'm not too big on Pinterest as a whole, but I do use it often for recipes. I think it's the best digital file I can find for recipes I'd like to attempt myself. There's just something about food being visual. That, and it organizes me way better than my file 'o' randomness I had going on in my kitchen before. Here are some recent pins I've made and the commentary...

European Peasant Bread

I wrote about this in my last post and actually made it yesterday! Of course that meant I had to invest in buying rye flour, whole wheat flour, and yeast, but it was incredible! I was nervous about halving the recipe since any time I attempt using yeast or powders in baking I fail miserably, but it ended up being quite fine! I was worried that my bread hardly rose at all, but it was meant to be a standard, dense bread and that it was. Perfectly crunchy on the outside and super hearty. Went perfectly with homemade split pea soup.

Here was my rendition... one dusted in flour and one not.
 Paired with a homemade pea soup...
Crock Pot Split Pea Soup (how I make it):
1 bag split peas
1 medium onion, chopped
2 carrots, diced
2 large potatoes, diced
6 cups of water or stock (if just water, use a bouillon cube or two with low/no sodium)
1 tsp. cumin
1 tsp. thyme
1 tsp. dry mustard
Cracked pepper to your liking

Cook on high for 4 hours or low for 6 hours (or until consistency reached). Last night, mine was not thickening fast enough, so I added 1/2 cup mashed potatoes and voila! I didn't have any carrots or onions, so I subbed with a hearty helping of onion powder and just didn't add the carrots. It's really quite versatile and as long as you like split pea soup (p.s. I hate real peas, but love this soup), you can add your favorite veggies/spices. I almost never make it exactly the same way every time because it is so versatile. That, and it's crazy high in protein! If you aren't a veggie or cooking for a non-veggie person, I recommend making and chopping up some bacon to sprinkle on the top. That way the flavor is altered to their liking and they are getting some meat protein as well-- though it's not necessary as a veggie dish can often be just as hearty as a meat dish.

Zesty Slow Cooker BBQ Chicken

Super easy and everyone loved it! Ray's parents even called for the recipe to replicate at home! It's a very standard recipe with only a few ingredients: 6 chicken breasts, 1 bottle BBQ sauce, 2 tbsp. Worcestershire, 1/2 cup of Italian dressing, 1/4 cup brown sugar. Super easy and they all loved it. I couldn't tell you if it's good or not, but the husband seemed to like it well enough and it's healthier than pulled pork like I usually make.

Roasted Brussel Sprouts w/ Balsamic & Olive Oil

Loved it. I would add an extra healthy portion of balsamic next time, however. They were delicious but didn't have enough kick to them.


Baked Vegetable Spring Rolls

Definitely delicious. I believe they call for egg roll wrappers, but I used spring roll wrappers and was equally pleased.


Vegetarian Baked Southwestern Spring Rolls

Oh so good. We loved these even more than the Asian-inspired ones! If you'd like, adding chicken can easily turn these into an amazing carnivore side dish or appetizer. I think we even made these one night for dinner. Since they are baked in spring roll wrappers (virtually fat free), it's quite a healthy meal in itself!

Pioneer Woman's Grilled Corn Guacamole

Love. There's nothing really to it, but the combination and the grill flavor makes it all taste incredible. Anything avocado/guacamole pretty much has me sold, though. As you could tell from my last post about that avocado pasta which I fully intend to make very soon.

Two Ingredient Pumpkin Muffins

They turned out quite well, moist, and decent. I wouldn't say they were earth-shattering and ended up being more like cupcakes with a hint of pumpkin then muffins... but still good. Sure, I'd make them again. My friend Alli even added chocolate chips to hers and they also turned out moist and lovely.

Pioneer Woman's Black-Eyed Pea Dip

I didn't have the black-eyed peas on hand but made it with black beans instead. Still incredible. Will definitely make again as a pretty phenomenal bean dip to change-up the ol' 7-layer dip favorite. Or like in the Midwest, I've seen lots of people make a 2-3 layer dip with taco seasoning mixed with sour cream and topped with shredded cheese. All fat... of course and none of the wholesome protein in the beans/avocado. But that's the Midwest for ya!

Homemade Tzatziki Dip

Almost entirely fat free when made with fat free Greek yogurt and incredibly high in protein/calcium. And did I mention absolutely delicious? On the list of definitely making this again and again.

"Potentially Life Changing One-Pot Mac n' Cheese"

While good, I wouldn't consider it life-changing. You basically cook the noodles in milk (not water) and they absorb the milk. Once absorbed, you add cheese and it's done. No straining any liquid = one pot. The more bite the cheese has, the less cheese you will need (naturally, as the flavor is bolder). I have tried this recipe twice now and I think it's fine. I like getting my calcium this way, especially in a dish that's usually quite high in fat content. I hate physically drinking milk, so cooking my noodles in milk packs the calcium in for me and I love that. I've used romano, asiago, sharp cheddar, and parmesan. All strong cheeses. Decent, not life-changing. Sure, I'd make it again.

And a few I cannot wait to try...

Brie & Apple Tarts

We're having people over in a couple weeks and we'll be providing appetizers. This is definitely what I'll be making. I may even make some with a little ham for a non-vegetarian's snack. How can you go wrong with pastry, brie, and apples anyway?


Homemade Ice Cream without the ice cream maker

I am afraid this will be too creamy, but I love how easy the recipe is. I love her website for more than just recipes. One, she's an incredible photog and has been helpful in teaching us some cool DSLR tricks... and then there's the baking. She's fabulous. I love her energy. And did I mention that I once won a giveaway by commenting on her site? A bunch of ice-cream related items. Nummers.

Blue Moon Cupcakes

While I don't love the wheat beers as much as the pale ales and ambers, I would love to try my hand at these. I imagine once I'm not gestating I'll be able to drink a beer while making said cupcakes. :)

7-Up Biscuits (only 4 ingredients!)

These get incredible reviews and I see them all. over. the. internet. People rave about them. I just wish I wouldn't keep forgetting to buy the darn Bisquick at the store.

Crock Pot Chicken Tikka Masala


I've never attempted Indian food, let alone in a crock pot! But, we love it. It's one of my favorite types of food, actually. There's something about all the flavors and being a veggie. For some reason it's often assumed that vegetarians don't like meat and therefore don't like spices and flavor. At least that's an issue I run into a lot. On the contrary, I love spice and flavor... I just don't want the animal added in! I'm anxious to see if the husband will enjoy this. We usually get our Indian fix by buying the $2 boil-in-a-bag at TJ's. Before you scoff, try them! They are surprisingly pretty tasty and quite filling paired with some quinoa and a grilled veggie (usually fresh green beans).

I'll let you know more successes as they come! We're having friends over tonight for breakfast for dinner. I'll be serving up some Organic Oatmeal waffles, breakfast potatoes, and others will be bringing dishes to add to the mix.

What about you guys? Anyone tried any of the above recipes (since a few are very popular on pinterest)?

Saturday, January 14, 2012

When Random REALLY Means Random

Remember the Monopoly game McDonald's puts on once a year? The one where you peel off a little label and win free fries or gain the coveted Boardwalk piece? Well, a local grocery store here in Chicagoland is playing a similar game called Wish Big, Win Big. I rarely shop there because their produce is crap, but when I do, I collect game pieces for our board. You can win an iPad, cash, a car, etc. etc. But mostly you win a free donut (which is a huge score for a pregnant chick) or nothing at all.

My husband should take full credit for this, but we won. We won.

TWO DOLLARS.
Moving on. 

I'm having a hard time dealing with loss and struggle lately. A girl I work with, only 25, just lost her mom in October. She woke up to find her dead on the couch. She then had to endure her mom's birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas with her sister and dad while attempting to piece through the loss. She's on antidepressants and confessed to me she's been drinking a bunch, started smoking, and can't afford therapy that she thinks she needs. To add to the madness, she went in for a routine OB appt. and they found abnormal cells that require a biopsy (possible pre-cervical cancer) and a lump in her breast. Breast cancer runs in her family as well. Why so much heartache?

Our favorite pastor at our local church is 55 years old and was diagnosed 2 months ago with stage 4 carcinoma that is all throughout his body. He was suffering from severe back pain and found out he is terminal.

Why loss, heartbreak, and all other sufferings happen upon some people, but others are spared simply boggles my mind. Why was my son to be the one of the 26,000 stillbirths a year and not any other person I know to give birth that year? Why was my friend's son Nathanael born with hydrocephalus? Why was my other friend's son born too early-- though thankfully spared? Why such a rough start? I'll attempt to ween myself away from this topic as it plagues my heart everyday... but I'll never accept this reality of loss and struggle for the innocent and wonderful people I've met in life.

I saw this on Pinterest and thought... yeah. freaking. right. Disagree.
Not sure about my followers, but somehow a house foreclosure or whatever sounds a little better than living the rest of my entire life without my son. Life is hard and we all have our struggles. But I have to say that some struggles manage to last a lifetime while others can be repaired or improve. Loss? Notsomuch.

Moving on.

I finished teaching my second MA course (but first all by myself!) on December 12th. I was just sent the results of my student evaluations and received all "agree" or "strongly agree" related to my teaching abilities... in addition to this wonderful comment:

This was the best experience I have had in this program so far. The
teacher did an excellent job giving examples and explaining her
requirements.


I'm teaching this course again in March and it's all set up and ready to go! That definitely brightened my day when I read it. I imagine it's really hard to handle receiving poor reviews from college students. Luckily, these are grad students and not undergraduate students. I remember being an undergrad and disregarding my professors as people at times. All of that changed when I entered grad school, of course. Thankfully, these students have treated me with great respect. I realize that won't happen every semester... but thrilled that this was the feedback for this go-around. I can use all the encouragement I can get at this point!

Moving on.

I was chosen as one of BlogHer's book reviewers for The Weird Sisters. My review to come. I'm quite excited to read this book! Gets 4/5 stars with 160 reviews on Amazon.


Moving on.

I'm a big Yelper. I love trying new places and always consult Yelp on our travels for little gems. I've been Yelp Elite status for three years and was just picked up as Yelp Elite for my fourth year in a row! I'm not compensated or anything... just love trying new places and reading reviews myself. They do host Yelp Elite-only events which I occasionally attend and score free dinner and libations. We've had some delicious and free eats thanks to Yelp! I do have a degree in journalism and sort of love writing for free. I know that might boggle some minds, but I enjoy it. Plus, it allows me to document where we eat/visit so I can remember what I ate, what I loved/hated, and places I'd love to re-visit. I also want to keep my faves in business and touting them definitely helps their business! I found this dorky article about us Elites this week.

You're probably wondering why the heck I bothered to mention that. Well... I reviewed a local Jewish deli the other day after being told to try it for months now. I told Ray about it and he'd been twice before taking me there... and he's since introduced his Friday lunch group to the place and they keep asking to go back. Well, I loved it. No surprise there. Five stars and a fabulous review. Because of my review, the manager emailed me and offered a free sandwich on my next visit. Score!

Moving on.

Speaking of freebies, my friend Alison sent me something free. The cutest little Kleenex box ever! There are 15 tissues in that cute, little Flip-sized box.
She knows me so well. I love receiving mail and I especially love freebies! I refuse to admit how much fun, free stuff I receive in the mail each week. Hah. It definitely makes it worth visiting the mailbox in the winter. Well, I have since stopped that little endeavor since ice and snow = a very scared Brandy. I even had someone escort me to my car the other day after work. I'm taking no chances. None.

Moving on.

The comments are starting to flow with this pregnancy.
"You're almost done! You can do it!" (yep, done it before)
"Just wait until he's here... you'll never get any sleep!" (don't get me started on how annoyed that makes me)
"You're going to love having a son!" (yeah, I think I would've loved having a son 13 months ago too)
or... any advice related to pregnancy and/or parenting.

I had a complete stranger ask me if she could touch my belly on Friday. I didn't know her name and she didn't know mine. As a matter of fact, I'd never seen her before in my life. All I could do was respond by saying, "Haven't experienced this in awhile, have you?" Seriously, what else am I going to say? Back off... I have a dead child and this is my second chance at possibly having a spark of my dream come true and I'm utterly uncomfortable by you near me?

Sigh. Moving on.

My friends Alli and Liz both use this special wifi card to send their pictures from their camera automatically to their computer through a wifi network. As long as you have wifi connected and are within the network's reach, the pictures will automatically upload to your computer immediately upon taking them. Cool eh? It's definitely awesome.


Moving on.

We bought Flip a Christmas present today. Seems a little presumptuous, I know. We attended this event at Ikea and scored free breakfasts, free bags, and BOGO lunch... but also went to check out the Ekorre rocking moose. We love moose. We bought Andrew a moose wall hanger for the nursery and knew that when we saw this bad boy, we had to buy it for Flip. The only reason we bought it was because they are discontinuing the item and figured it was our last chance at it. It's put away in a closet to hopefully be used by a special little boy in the next year or two. Note: I typed in Ekorre to Google images and up popped this:

Apparently there is such a thing as an Ekorre-- European red squirrel. 
Here's what I was meaning to search for:
Moving on.

Flip updates to come along with a name reveal in the next week or two. I'm part lazy, part apprehensive. We plan to start a DSLR tutorial schedule tomorrow. Also, I pinned two things on Pinterest that I pretty much want to make like immediately. That sounds like a good way to end this smorg of a post.

European Peasant Bread

and...

Avocado Lime Pasta

Friday, January 13, 2012

Home Reno Updates. Finally.

A little over one year ago I posted about stripping the wallpaper in our laundry room. It's been done for about a year, too. I guess it's time for the unveiling, eh? Note the pink/purple/blue speckled wallpaper with the flowery trim border. Not exactly our style. Had to go. It does get tricky when dealing with small spaces that house large appliances, however. This project was a speedy one as we didn't want to run out of underwear.
Here's the only other photo I took and there are no other angled shots. But, this is pretty much how bare-bones our laundry room was. To the left of where I was standing to take the shot is the door to the kitchen and the rest of the house. To the right is the garage door. Straight forward is our deck (outside) and just behind where I was standing is our enormous pantry. The door was not only rotted, but did not have a weather seal! In Chicago! Note the classy duct tape to keep the cool air out. It was practically leaking money every single month. We also needed to replace it because we had no key to enter it from the outside.
And these are the after shots I took this afternoon.
A new sink needed to be added to replace a very dirty old sink that was speckled and basically looked like it was made in 1900. Though, I have to say that this one is considerably cheaper in quality and construction. There's something to say for older models and well-built items. But, we were being superficial and this would be the result.
I don't love the paper towel storage on top, but we're a bit too lazy to schlep them all the way to the basement. I dream of cute baskets to go on top, but then again... I can't even reach the paper towels half the time and they'd just be a breeding ground for lint and dust.
Note the new door and the amazing, incredible, magnetic and wood-stained (by us) whiteboard by Ghent. We wanted a place that we could keep mementos, coupons, paperwork, cute kid drawings (I dream...), etc. etc. I think it will come quite in handy when we do have little ones to plan for. Our stainless steel fridge is not magnet-friendly and we appreciate the lack of clutter in our kitchen anyway... hence the whiteboard. It's the catch-all. That, and it did a spectacular job of covering up our notsofabulous spackle job underneath. This room was particularly difficult to get smooth because 1. we were lazy, 2. we used a semi-gloss paint which highlights all imperfections in the walls in a room with lots of natural light, and 3. there were itty bitty holes (and large ones) everywhere and it felt nearly impossible to sand it seamlessly.
 We also re-stained the doors to the pantry, garage, and all the trim in the room.
 New door. With keys that really work! The rugs are pretty cheap and I think we paid about $10 for the runner and $3 for the other one at Ikea. Nothing special there.
And finally... the cabinets. We bought cabinets already pre-made from Home Depot for $108. What a difference it makes! It houses all of our laundry detergent, spot cleaners, bleach, lightbulbs, etc. It sure beats having it on the floor like I used to before they were installed! I also like that the toxic chemicals/items like the bleach and fluorescent lightbulbs no longer being under my kitchen sink. The light fixture was also relatively inexpensive at about $15 from Menards, a Midwest Home Depot equivalent.
And then there's distraction project #2 that was all about scraping popcorn from our ceiling, stripping wallpaper, and painting. The reveal is not as drastic because we chose to strip the wallpaper and replace it with paint of the same shade and color. We didn't mind the wallpaper, but it was dated and had some holes and discoloration. That, and we needed to have a wallpaper-free house... finally. After five rooms of stripping, peelings, scraping, screaming, wanting to rip our eyebrows out, priming, priming, priming, painting, painting, and finally hanging all the crap back on the walls, we were d-o-n-e. But, we love the result. Who would've thought that the wallpaper we expected to be the easiest to strip off would've been the hardest the handle with the least amount of change and wow-factor. Of course it is. We nearly decided to replace all of the drywall-- it was that bad. And did I mention that this was also the only room with popcorn ceiling that needed to be scraped? Yeah, there was that, too. Nothing too exciting here except upgrading to a real TV stand (thank you Craigslist!), a real big person television, DVR, and ditching the VHS tapes/VCR for our Wii. Yes, we still own a VCR.
 Aside from the wallpaper being stripped, we also got rid of that light and replaced it with lamps from Target on our new end tables. But don't worry. We're still keeping it real with my college couches. They are Bauhaus so I guess they aren't too terrible. Especially with our lovely Surefit slip covers. Totally recommend those, btw.
 The transformation for what it's worth...
 Popcorn ceiling be gone! Freshly painted ceiling, beams, and trim all through the room... which was another nightmare in itself because we decided to buy some fancy primer that didn't work. Turns out the cheap stuff can sometimes work better.

Our new fireplace. Try to forget that you're seeing a yellow gas line on the right. We haven't gotten around to spray painting that with fire-retardant black spray paint just yet. That is also in the category of we're really tired of this room and will probably never get around to it.
Notice the lamps on the new end tables. The end tables are from Target and surprisingly super sturdy and gorgeous.
I don't recommend the lamps, though they were really inexpensive and from Target as well. We just wanted simple lamps with a dark base.
The lamps came as a set of three-- two table lamps and one awkwardly short, floor lamp. It was less than 5" tall and just didn't fit in our room.
We took out the large piece from the center and placed it near the loveseat on the fireplace ledge. You can see it in this photo best.
 Say no to popcorn.


We're pretty wiped out now. We haven't really tackled another house project since the summer when we completed our family room/informal living room. We're constantly maintaining as every homeowner does, but no major transformations to be shown. Is it baby time yet?

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Recently in the 'Burbs...

...Ray's parents came into town. They were here for a couple days and left on New Year's Day.

We managed to pack in a raclette dinner, hibachi, a tour of Eli's Cheesecake, three movies and saw the musical, The Sound of Music.

They arrived with three movies to pass the time... which were all good, by the way! Source Code, Morning Glory, and The Help. We aren't big movie watchers and had yet to see any of the titles they brought. We had to save The Help for last as I was about halfway through reading the entire book of 544 pages on my iPhone (which = 1661 mini pages). I rent-downloaded it from the library for free and it couldn't be downloaded on my Nook, so I had to read it via computer or iPhone. I wanted something to read on the airplane back from South Padre, so I chose the iPhone. The nook was a birthday gift from my parents and I do enjoy reading on it-- I just don't love the exorbitant cost of books when I can buy them paperback for the same price! Case in point-- The Hunger Games trilogy is cheaper when purchased separately. Silly if you ask me. But the Nook itself is quite nice to read on and I very much enjoy it.

Anyway... I had to finish the book before watching the movie. I was literally finishing the last page of the book as the clock struck midnight in this here state on New Year's. Hoorah. 2012 has arrived. I was getting quite anxious throughout the book despite knowing it's A. historical fiction, and B. somewhat resolved as an issue (segregation). Thankfully.

If you haven't read, it's a fantastic read. I wouldn't qualify it as the best book I've ever read by any means, but a pretty darn good read that you'll want to finish in a few days. There are three main characters, one of them being a housemaid, Aibileen. She speaks frequently in the book about missing her son, Treelore who was killed at the age of 24. Her words are powerful:

"I feel tears come up in my eyes, cause three years just ain't long enough. A hundred years ain't gone be long enough."

She's so right on. We're at 13 months now and while the pain stings less, it still stings and will always put a bitter taste of sadness in my mouth. A longing and hope that will never be achieved. Never reached. Never attained. The innocence and perfection born within my son will always be but a {bitter}sweet memory.

Our reviews on the movies:
Source Code: I'll admit that I didn't watch it-- apparently Sci-fi and decent. My father-in-law rated it best of 3. I don't do Sci-fi much, but it was taped in Chicago... so bonus points.
Morning Glory: Cute little film, but I had a hard time with the romance aspect. It was just thrown in there like it was completely unnecessary to the plot. I'd rate it a B+.
The Help: Good, but obviously not as good as the book. The richness of print just pops at you when every detail is realized. Because I was fresh from finishing it just hours before, I knew when Hilly's dress was green instead of red at the banquet and would've preferred the accuracy to align with the book. While that doesn't add or subtract to the plot any, I found the storyline relatively pinned. The message was not lost, but the details were at times. I'm sure glad they showed Mae Mobley taking a bathroom break on Hilly's front lawn as they did in the book. As usual, the public was not versed on how graphic and tragic the loss of a child is in-utero like it depicted much better (and hard to read for me) in print. I understand... but sometimes I just want the audience to understand the tragedy better as I've lived it. Glazing over the details of child loss suppresses the issue and makes it seem less important. Feigning ignorance is not always the answer.

Now onto some photos...

This factory tour is rated one of the top 5 or something in the country. Other than lots of free cheesecake and learning some cool facts via video/speaker, the tour was a bust. We spent about 7 minutes in the actual factory where the workers were busy and only saw some decorating of cookies and cheesecake. We wanted to see the mixing and baking-- nope.
 Before entering the factory...
 We purchased a turtle cheesecake for $6 along with 3 dipped cheesecakes and all the freebies they gave us.
 We went for hibachi one evening since Ray's dad loves it. It's one of our favorite local joints...
Here we are at The Sound of Music. It was an excellent production despite sitting in the equivalent of Southwest Airlines seats. Hah. Pregnancy makes me even more annoyed with close quarters and people around me...touching my arm. Ick.
 Raclette dinner on New Year's Eve. Just before finishing up that book. :)
 Closeup of raclette because the last two times I've blogged about it, my pictures were awful!
Photos courtesy of my mother-in-law who is excellent at documenting our time together.

An update of our renovations from last year's distraction projects to come. Right after I kickstart my first DSLR tutorial this weekend. Which probably means I should plan out some learning time, eh? Prepare to be amazed with my less-than-stellar-and-probably-won't-be-any-better-with-an-expensive-camera skills.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Blindly Pressing Forward

I've had a few scares the last couple days. Well, only one scare where we discussed the option of calling my OB but were relieved by kicks moments later. And then it set me on edge for a few days after. I feel like I'm "coming down" from that insanity now, like it ever really goes away for very long.

I've started kick counts and I've never done those before. I realize "they" say that kick counts could help the mother determine a change over time and therefore prevent a stillbirth by acknowledging a decrease in movement. But what if the movement decreases for a few hours (like not feeling anything) and then the kicks are nonstop for an hour a bit later? Babies have sleep cycles. I know this. Babies grow most while sleeping and need to sleep. I know this. That sure doesn't help my anxiety any, of course.

And how about it being so unscientific, these kick counts and other methods of attempting to avert disaster? I just hate how there is no control. I've never, ever had control and I'm aware of it. It doesn't mean I like it or am handling it well by any means. His movements are changing. They're still present, but he's filling out his space so well that he doesn't punch as much and has now moved on to rolling motions. My OB even commented about this likely being a big baby... whatever that means. NSTs will start this month along with extra monitoring as I approach what should be considered the home stretch. Again, whatever that means.

We're in the 50's. As in, I'll be holding a child, of mine, in my arms at some point in the next 50+ days. Only time will tell if that child will be healthy and alive. I just can't lose another baby that could be viable and alive and well and healthy outside of my womb. And there's no telling I would or should. Millions upon millions of women give birth every year to babies. Babies who are born healthy without extra monitoring or kick counts or fanaticism. I never hear of stillbirth in my real life pocket. Not with friends, co-workers, parents of students. Maybe they aren't telling. Maybe it's happening out there (well, it is to about 26,000/year). But I sure don't know about it. What I do know is that everyone and their freaking best friend is either pregnant or delivering healthy babies all around me. It's got to be my turn, right? Right?

We talk to this baby nonstop. Part of me is trying anything to just bond so that maybe my words or the amount of I love yous I blurt out will somehow result in a live child. Like I didn't talk to Andrew just as much or rub my belly enough to save his life. No amount of being frantic can control the fate I will be served.

I have fears of PTSD and PPD and all those things as well. But right now, I just need a live baby. My own crazy can be dealt with as it needs to be once this little one is safely alive in my arms.

Godspeed, my child. I promise I will spoil you and pick you up nonstop and do all those things those stupid parenting books tell me not to because of attachment or whatever. Those books have long since been shelved as I fully intend to cradle you and smother you with so much love. You have no idea.