Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Madeline Mae

I recently wrote about the name we chose for our newest baby, Claire Mae, and how we chose to name her after my great granny, Madeline Mae.

My family said goodbye to Madeline Mae yesterday after a series of unfortunate events that finally led to her passing. At a very spunky 98-years old, she lived a full and wonderful life. To that, we are so very grateful.

While death will always make me sad because I won't personally get to see her face or hear her beautiful voice or infectious laugh again, I am so grateful we had so many years with her. Her life couldn't have been more full and the years she was granted were far longer than many. And yet, we're still sad for ourselves because we miss the person she was and the spirit she brought.

I'm not kidding about that laugh. It was almost a nervous laugh. She'd laugh at just about everything and gave the tightest hugs you've ever experienced-- even at such an old age. The joy that she displayed in her life was one you wanted to witness. Before my great-grandpa passed away, they would visit nursing homes together and spend time with those friends who needed the love.

Just about a week ago, my mom and uncle went up to Northern California to visit her and say their goodbyes, knowing that her time might be coming soon. They brought her donuts. She was so thrilled, she stuffed an entire donut hole in her mouth-- on a woman who never hit 5-feet tall, you can imagine her petite frame. She went all-in. With life and with donuts.

I am honored to name my daughter after such a lovely woman and undoubtedly one of my favorite relatives. I wrote her a card telling her about our daughter and her namesake. She likely never received this card due to some unfortunate circumstances, but I'm thankful my mom was able to travel there and tell her in person that our daughter will always carry a part of her. For 28 weeks, there were five generations of women alive in our family. While I won't be traveling to her funeral this far along with a large belly and a rambunctious toddler, I do remember all that she is and was to us.
When talking with my husband last night, we both had a moment in talking about Andrew. This tends to happen when we hear of someone else passing away, especially someone dear to our hearts. It makes us think of where they are... and where he is. My husband said he hoped she was hanging out with our boy. I hope she was holding him and loving him like I crave to be doing myself. But knowing the woman she was, there isn't a doubt in my mind that she is doing that. In fact, there's no one else I'd rather he be with right now than her.

A bittersweet passing, but just knowing she might be up there with a second calling of caring for my boy puts me in tears. He needs your hugs, Granny.


Laura Jane said... [Reply to comment]

<3 So sorry (again) to hear about Madeline Mae. Love the visual of Andrew being held by his great-grandma. And even more to think she might giving him his first delicious taste of donut.


Ben and Katie said... [Reply to comment]

Oh you know she scooped him up and wrapped her arms around sweet Andrew! Shes also probably singing him songs, giving him a tight hug and giving out a laugh that she's with him forever!
Our hearts and prayers are with you!

Brooke said... [Reply to comment]

I'm so sorry about your grandma. You're so lucky to have had many years with her, but that doesn't make the sadness go away. I'm glad that Claire will carry her name and sorry they won't ever get to meet in this lifetime.

I find it very comforting to think about Eliza being with my grandparents and I have tears in my eyes when I imagine your grandma greeting Andrew. Much love to you and your family.

Brie said... [Reply to comment]

Brandy, I am sorry to hear of your great grandma's passing. Your post is so touching. My heart goes out to you

Kari at A Grace Full Life said... [Reply to comment]

Aww she looked like such a sweetie pie!
My youngest, Ella, is named after my Gramma.
My gramma passed away when I was pregnant with Ella.
I feel my gramma's spirit in Ella ALL THE TIME.
Big hugs and love.

Anne said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry for your loss...I was lucky enough to have both of my great-grandmothers living up until I went to college and know how special they are! Yours sounds just as spunky as mine...she was probably THRILLED to get her hands on that baby boy.

Party of Three Heads said... [Reply to comment]

So very sorry for your loss. This post put knots in my heart, and tears on my cheek. Only if we could be holding and loving them too..

LookItsJessica said... [Reply to comment]

So sorry for your loss, but you are right, she is definitely with Andrew. Hugs!

Darcey said... [Reply to comment]

So very sorry for your loss. She sounded like a wonderful woman who really impacted your life. How wondeful you can honor her memory through your daughter.

I also find a little solace knowing my boy is up there with my grandparents, but causes my heart to ache as well.

Solange, Nik, Caitlin and Oliver said... [Reply to comment]

Oh, B. I'm so sorry to hear this. I am positive she is up there hugging on your sweet boy.

Tiffany said... [Reply to comment]

so sorry to hear about the loss of such a special person. i truly pray that your loss is Andrew's gain. ((hugs))

Veronica said... [Reply to comment]

Your granny sounds like a beautiful soul.

My grandmothers were "granny's" too.

Sounds like Claire is carrying on a beautiful legacy. Honoring a wonderful life lived.

Sending love to you and your family.

Katie Truelove said... [Reply to comment]

I am so sorry to hear about your grandma- she sounds like a wonderful woman. I am named after both of my grandmothers and this has been a constant source of pride and inspiration for me. What a beautiful name to pass on to your sweet daughter.